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Hey, I’m Jackie.
My measurements are 42-32-45 and I’m perfectly fine with them :)
I think I look good as hell in this dress!
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This is my first ever submission and I am still very surprised at myself for even attempting to. I have always struggled to accept myself, always thinking i’m not good enough. And honestly, it’s an ongoing struggle but there are days that I feel i’m content with who I am and how I look. And that gives me hope that those days will lead me to love myself more.
5’3 and 150lbs
24 yrs, 5 feet, 150 lbs, dress size 10
Two hours before this photo was taken, I was standing in the shower crying my eyes out wishing my mother were alive to tell me how beautiful I was. Instead my fiancé was nervously standing outside the shower stall reassuring me that I was not a disgusting blob of a human being who did not deserve his love. I felt such self-loathing because six months after purchasing my dress, it would not zip up all the way.
I could go on about how as I child I was taunted on a regular basis about my weight and how it has negatively affected my self-image, but the sad fact is I am still being taunted to this day. Only now it’s the endless bridal magazines that only feature women who are 50 pounds lighter and a foot taller than me. It’s the middle-aged women at my work that are constantly giving me weight loss tips without having asked for them. It’s my personal trainer reminding me that they can take my dress in two sizes when I have made it clear my ultimate goal is health, not weight loss. It’s my grandma who was adamant that I should not get a wedding dress one size up to be more comfortable because six months is a long time to lose 10 pounds.
WELL GUESS WHAT SOCIETY! I HAVE CURVES AND THEY ARE DAMN SEXY. Why is it that on the happiest day of my life I should be a starving skeleton like version of myself? I want to be round and soft so I can embrace my family and friends with an abundance of my being. Why are women expected to look like coat racks and give their wedding dresses all the attention? I am wearing my wedding dress it is not wearing me.
I just really want to know, who decided that becoming a bride means giving permission to be scrutinized by society? Being a bride, does not give you permission to talk about my weight. There is this revolutionary concept that all women are allowed to love the bodies they have and not be expected to change them to meet your narrow definition of beauty.
I’ve been told that I’m too self deprecating, and that I should really learn to celebrate me and everything I have to offer. People will notice confidence. Easier said than done. In my experience confidence is often seen as a threat, and others that I know have been looked down upon for it. I have days when I look at myself in the mirror and say, “Damn, I look good!” and others where I just want to shatter the mirror in front of me, or invent a way to shave the fat from my body in a less invasive form of liposuction, or something of the like.
I’ve been told numerous times that I’m beautiful, gorgeous, and amazing, but every time I hear such a compliment, I honestly can’t accept it or see why they would say such a thing. My friends and I say that’s a “me” problem, and that is certainly a true fact. I feel as though I should try to invent a better version of me; I’m still trying to figure all of that out. I think sort of pouring out my thoughts here in an accepting space of love will help me and others like me to see my flawed logic and to realize that we’re ALL beautiful, gorgeous, and amazing, just the way we are.
42-32-42 - This dress makes me feel incredible.. and so does my daily dose of curveappeal. Thanks crew x
Jackie, 20, UK size.. 14 by now, I think.
This used to be a white dress with the skirt down over my knees. And then I dyed it and cut off a good portion, just to show I can show my legs, too.
Did a fall shoot for my sister and my plus size blog! Check it out www.chubbeezynation.tumblr.com
Working on becoming healthier not skinnierrrr, still a great size 8/10 and proud to have curves! :) All you girls are amazing, keep doing what you’re doing!